Kim_McPherson Profile

Born Kimberly Lyann Hearn May 8, 1980 in Houston, TX, I was blessed with an amazing mother and a rotten biological father. By the time I was three my parents divorced and parted ways. I cannot say that I had the worst childhood but I can say things could have been better, little did I know that a miracle was about to take place. Once my Mother left my Biological Father and was fully divorced she began dating a man named Ronald McPherson. After a few dates they knew they were meant for each other so my Mother introduced him to my older brother and me. Within a year of knowing this man he decided he wanted marry my Mother and adopt my brother and I. I was so excited and am still so thankful for the adoption because, to me, it gave me another chance to have a better Father, in essence an upgrade. The process took place and ever since I have called him my Father. Once my parents were married my little sister came into the picture. God knew what he was doing when he created my family because we even look alike. I am so grateful for my Father and I thank God daily for giving me such amazing parents. It just goes to show you that you do not have to be blood related to be a family.
In 1984 we moved to the Woodlands, my name was officially changed to Kimberly Lyann McPherson, and my family and I have lived here ever since; of course I have ventured out of the nest to various areas but I always come back to what I know and that is The Woodlands.
I went to public school in the Woodlands and Graduated with honors from The Woodlands High school in 1998. I had a severe eating disorder during Jr. High and High school and it was only with lots of help and by the grace of God that I graduated from high school. It's not that I wasn't bright it was more that I physically could not make it a whole day at school and dance. At first, they took me out of dance but it didn't help I was too far gone. The disease had its ugly grip on me tight and I was spinning out of control. With the help of many precious angels and teachers I made it to Graduation. During that time I wanted, so bad, to go to college but unfortunately (and fortunately) I had to go to get help. The first few places didn't work but Remuda Ranch finally stepped in, saved my life, and brought me back to reality. I have been eating disorder free since January of 1999! Life after Remuda was tough getting used to but worth it. I slipped many times but God always picked me up, dusted me off, and set me back on track. I did continue to go to a local college with hopes of graduating from Rice University or somewhere cool like that ;). I realistically only acquired a couple years at community college but I will never give up on the hopes of graduating from a "real" college with a "real" degree. I think if I was to go back and further my education I would like to continue to study psychology because that is what intrigues me the most (if you could get a degree from life experience I would definitely have a doctorate by now). Neurology, physiology, the arts, and writing are other interests I would like to explore scholastically. The main reasons for me to attain some credits in writing would obviously be to help me with my writing and also help me where I need it the most, in the editing department. For now I'm happy studying things on my own, writing and learning as many lessons as possible every day; I know I'll be back in the classroom before too long.
Here is a brainstorm of who I think I am.
First and foremost I am a reborn child of God and everything that is me belongs to him. I cannot take credit for the miracles that made me who I am today. These miracles are the reason why my faith in God is so strong. Because God has spared my life time and time again even though I didn't deserve it is why I am the way I am today. In the times when the devil's claws had a grip on my heart and mind so strong is when I would later see how much the angels of God would warrior on to carry me through. I am so much stronger now because of it. I now see that the tests of time have strengthened me to a point where I can now talk freely about my past without freaking out because it is what it is, or should I say he is what he is? He is grace, mercy, strength and freedom all wrapped in one package and I love him. I owe everything I am to him. I now know it’s not my way it is Yahweh!
I have been tagged with many labels when it comes to my brain: ADHD, Bipolar, panic disorder, severe depression, dyslexia, PTSD, and OCD to name a few. I don't always agree with the doctors on these so I make sure and do the research and tests to make sure I qualify before even getting a second opinion. Once I get a second opinion I then search for the BEST doctors to help me in my journey if living with a "label".
The labels I live with that relate to the body are another story. I have been told too many things to count so the things that I can think of at this moment that I have the trouble with the most are: hyponatremia, hypothyroidism, tachycardia, severe PMDD (I don’t know how much that plays a part in my moods and bipolar but it's there because I can tell a huge difference in the way I feel around the clock of my cycle). Carpal tunnel and cubital tunnel, reconstruction of the left ankle, neck surgery (fell off horse, broke my neck and hit my head so hard my ears rang for weeks after), pituitary adenoma (from hitting my head so hard), GERD (from eating disorder) , gallbladder, tonsil, adenoid removal, sinus drilling, sphincter Oddi dysfunction, broken hand, torn mcl, cardio syncope, and much, much more ( this is just the tip of the iceberg and all in the past few years). Always with these things I get a second opinion and research my doctors before ever having a procedure or taking a medication. Holy Crap! When I look back at this list, first, I cannot believe I wrote it all out because that is a lot of personal information, Second, I look like a big fat whiny baby! Oh woe is me, boo-hoo look how bad I have it. No, no way! I totally understand how great I have it and how blessed I am. I just was on a roll and figured hey why not write em' all down. Believe me when I say I DO NOT want to live in my past or by these labels. By the grace of God I am able to shed these labels!
I hate having to live life out of a medicine cabinet however, when you have as much as I do going on you begin to be thankful that there is medication for the things you suffer from. When you realize the positive outcomes outweigh the side effects is when you recognize you probably should take your medicine. Knowing that a few pills can make the difference between life and death along with allowing me to be a functioning member of society is when I know I would rather baptize a few pills than have to fight even harder to stay sane and alive. I know me on my medication and I know me off. I do not like the person I am when my medication is off or too low. I fizzle out and completely shut down. I am not me when I am like that and I hate it, therefore, I work diligently with my doctor to make sure I am on the best medication possible to ensure that I am the best me I can be.
Sometimes, I want to be everywhere and nowhere all at once but believe me when I say my heart is in it 100%. A lot of my journey has been me realizing that I need to give my heart, mind, body and soul to God to make my decisions. I am too fragile to try to do this thing called life alone. However, I cannot leave it all up to him; I still have to play my part. Much of my time has been spent getting to know the real me. I am figuring out that the more learn to like myself the smoother things go. If I can take me for me (flaws and all) then it's easier for me to think that someone (God) could love me unconditionally. After all he did make me in his image. I have battled the thought that this could be an impossible for too long and I am finished thinking this way. Yes, I will fight the urge to say I'm nothing at times, from this moment on I will combat a negative declaration with a statement that is positive and true. I am a child of God and I AM created in his image therefore, I am beautifully and wonderfully made!
If I don't fight back the evil wins and the pain and anguish return again. I never want to feel trapped in pit of despair so deep where I want to die like I have in my past. I have overcome some amazing obstacles and I thank God for saving my life so many times. I want to continue to knock down the walls that keep me from achieving the goals that God has set for my life. I owe all that I am to God and my journey through the battlefield called life. In so many ways God has broken me, molded, reshaped, and rekindled me in order to refine who I am. I am so thankful for the lessons I have learned for they have made me wiser, graceful, openhearted, kinder, more patient, more chill and relaxed (sometimes), able to endure pain, multi-task, organize, accomplish more, help others (and hopefully help more as my journey progresses), withstand pressure, smile more, have more confidence, resist negativity, have more fun ;), take better care of myself, enjoy life, stay in the moment, love harder yet smarter, pray at the drop of a hat, know it's not all about me, look at the big picture, play hard, rest harder, reach for the stars, judge less, hug more, and to not take myself so seriously. The list could go on and on. I am just so thankful that I am still alive after what I've been through. I have survived eating disorders, numerous suicide attempts, Alcoholism, Drug Abuse, Sobriety, falling off a horse (breaking my neck and hitting my head), Deep depressions, sooo many labels, medicine interactions, and things that would blow your mind. I thank Jesus every day that I am still alive and that I can finally see the light because life is so much better now.